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Beach Vacayyy!

I finally got my beach trip!!!! I've been trying to plan a trip for forever, but it just never worked out.  It's been 2 years, and that is absolutely not acceptable. The beach is my happy place, and it was much needed! It was as little different experience for me since I went with my boyfriend and his kids, and our friends and their kids, but it was a great time! The kids had a blast, and all I need is some time on the sand with a beach view and I am GOOD. My happy place Their frozen drinks were delicious!  Life is better in a bikini!  Love these pics!  Father and daughter Walking the beach after dinner  Kids loved jumping the waves!  Beach hair don't care! I need to see this at least once a year! Friends!💙 Salt in the air, sand in my hair 🌴

Two Years

Well, the 2 year anniversary of my husband's passing came and went. I had a lot of anxiety leading up to that day, as I do with days like those. You just never know what to expect or how you will feel...sometimes the anxiety leading up to the day is worse than the actual day. But I felt as I expected I would. I looked at photos and videos and cried. I just felt tired and "off" the first half of the day, but I went in to work and that helped. This is one of the harder days for me, but I made it through. Matt, 2 years. You've been gone for TWO YEARS. How can that be? How? How are you not here? How am I living life without you?  Not a day goes by that I don't think of you, that I don't miss you. I don't talk about it, my grief, or about you, as much anymore...Not because I don't want to, but because I feel like I "shouldn't"...and I hate that. I hate  that I feel like I can't talk about you, that people don't want to hear about it an