Lindsay's Ramblings

When they say that grief changes but never goes away, it's so true. This whole grief journey is so hard to explain or understand unless you have been through it. And not just grief, but the loss of a spouse specifically, someone whom your WORLD revolved around.  I still miss Matt every day. Not a day has passed in 3 and a half years that I haven't thought about him. But at the same time, I enjoy this life I have, I truly do. It's weird now-as time passes, I just feel more and more distant from him. I feel like if we were to meet today, we would be strangers, that he wouldn't even recognize me. And that is so weird to think about when it comes to the person you were closest to in your life. It's weird sharing that closeness now with someone new. It plays tricks on my mind. I even dream about it often-Matt coming back and be having to tell him that I'm with Damon. I hate those dreams. When I think of the past, it makes me sad, but it feels like that person wasn