Lindsay's Ramblings

  Since Matt died 4 years ago, my life has been divided into the before and the after, into my "old" life and my "new" life. I loved my life then. I love my life now. Because I choose to. Do I miss things about my old life? Absolutely. But I'm grateful for what I have now, and I choose to embrace the life God has given me. There are so many things I miss about my old life, but there are things I love even more about my "new" life. Matt and I had no children. We had our little routine, just us, in our happy little bubble together. The house was peaceful and quiet alllll the time. Evenings were spent snuggled on the couch, weekends were date nights, hikes, and Jeep rides with Asher. I loved everything about it and would have changed NOTHING.  This new life...is far from peaceful and quiet.   I now have 3 kids under my care with my boyfriend 50% of the time. It's loud and chaotic and BUSY. It's running all over the place to get to practices and ga