Lindsay's Ramblings

Damon and I recently had a kid's free camping weekend, and it was a great time! We've gone camping with the kids many times, but this was our first time just the two of us. There's just something so relaxing to me about being out in nature, surrounded by trees and water.  It was much needed! The weather was perfect, and the campsite was great. There was a little spot right behind us where we had access to the lake, so we spent the first evening fishing and then sitting by the fire under the stars. Damon caught quite a few fish, but I caught nothing...because I suck at fishing. Ha!  Everything was great, besides being woken up multiple times during the night by what we assume were racoons trying to get into our food! But hey, that's just nature for ya!  The next day, we had our morning coffee by the fire, did a little more fishing and then did some kayaking. Definitely a great weekend trip, and looking forward to the next one! Hopefully next time we will have our boat up

I am done. I am done caring what other people think of me.  I am done worrying about people misunderstanding me.  I am done living in fear. I am done feeling like I'm not enough, feeling like no one likes me. I am done having a pity party!  I am done with thinking that I can't be or won't be happy again. I am DONE . Yes, I've been hurt. Yes, I'm tired and worn and exhausted and broken. But I know who I am. I'm strong and resilient and caring and kind and loyal. I am a child of God. I am strong in Christ. I am chosen. I am loved. I am more than a conqueror. I am not going to let other people affect my well-being, or cause me to question my worth any longer. Yes, I have changed. Trauma does that to you. Grieving does that to you. Losing your innocent mind and naivety after living in a bubble for 12 years does that to you. Being hurt and betrayed does that to you. But it's not an excuse to let myself be filled with anger, resentment, bitterness, or self-pity. T