Lindsay's Ramblings

Sometimes I feel torn... Torn between being soft and hard. Between not caring and caring too much. Between letting my heart grow cold and numb, or keeping it open and vulnerable.  Life can break you down. Pain, hurt, loss, rejection, betrayal...it gets to you over time, after your heart has been battered from one thing after another after another.... It can make you doubt, question yourself, question your worth.  It can take away the joy of life...it can take away your "spark." IF you don't have hope. IF you don't have something to cling to. IF you don't something that brings you joy outside of your circumstances. IF you don't have a purpose that goes beyond yourself. IF you don't have faith in a creator who made you, who KNOWS you, who LOVES you, who will NEVER leave you, who has a PLAN for you. When you have that, you can go through some crap in your life, and still make it out okay, without growing numb or cold or bitter or angry. But it's only beca