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Ugggghh....it's such a nasty, rainy day. Of course, on the day it's finally going to be warm(almost 70!!), I can't enjoy it cuz it's probably going to rain all day. I can't even explain how BAD I want nice weather to get here. I cannot stand this.

But anyway, I've been packing up stuff for the past couple weeks, and now I'm basically done. We have so much stuff! I didn't realize it until now...especially now that we are going to live in a place that is MUCH smaller than what we have now. So a lot of it is going to storage.

It's going to be different living in a place that is is about half the size of our house right now! But it's okay, because all that matters to me is having a roof over our head, and a warm bed to sleep in at night. Because how many people in the world don't have that? There are children in parts of the world who would LOVE to just have a big, soft, warm, comfy bed to sleep in at night. I sponsor a little boy who lives in Columbia, so whenever I start to feel like I'm losing everything, I just think of him.

Life isn't about "things"...and we rely way too much on our things to make us happy. We always want more and more...even when we have so much...it seems we can never get enough. I was listening to a preacher the other day on the radio, and he said something I really liked. He was talking about Psalms 23 where it says, "my cup runneth over". He said that God blesses us so much; he causes our "cup" to overflow....but many of us are not satisfied with our cup running over-we just want a bigger cup!!! It's so true...

And I don't wanna be like that. I really didn't think I was like that, but maybe I was.? Material things don't bring happiness-only God does. I want Him to be the main source of my joy and happiness. I think going through this situation has made me focus and rely more on Him. It's a hard time right now, but God never said that our life would be easy. And when I think about things that other people may be going through, I can't complain at all. I am healthy, and I have food to eat and a place to live, and I will be content with that.

I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. -Philippians 4:12

But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. -1 Timothy 6:8

Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."
-Hebrews 14:5

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