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Don't Worry

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food and the body more than clothes. (Luke 12:22-23)

I don't know what it is, but I have had more anxiety/worries the past few months than I ever have in my life. I have always prided myself on being a stress free, optimistic, non-worrying person!!

Most of the time I can't even pinpoint what it is that I'm worrying about-it's nothing major...it's just almost like a nagging feeling in the back of my head, or sort of like I never feel completely at peace or content or something. It's really hard to explain, but it's very annoying!

And it's not there all the time...just hits me every now and then and I just try to push it away. I don't know, maybe it's just life and a normal feeling that other people have, too. I'm just not used to it!

It's usually the dumbest, smallest things that I have anxiety over. Like first it was my eating-worrying about what all my meals were gonna be for the day and the next day...now it's not so much meal planning, but worrying about if I'm getting enough carbs or too many carbs...or worrying about if I'm not training my clients hard enough or helping them in the right way with their eating habits...or worrying about my work schedule...or...sometimes it's even just anxiety about what my cheat meal for the week is going to be!!! I mean, really??

BUT anyway, enough about that. I am trusting in God for PEACE. I give my anxieties and worries to Him!

I'm so glad tomorrow is Friday! I have a three day weekend, and I can't wait to relax and hang out with Matt and have something really really yummy for my cheat meal! :)

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  1. TheFitnessFreakSeptember 16, 2010 at 9:10 PM

    I know what you mean Lindsay, I have been feeling the same way. I think it is the times we are living in. I feel the Lord is trying to move and Satan does not like it. Everyone I talk to seems to be dealing with some sort of distraction. I started a course on seetingcaptivesfree.com. It's a food course to overcome overeating but I use it because I have let food, working out, dieting become my idol and it is really helping me overcome it. Check it out : ) It's The Lord's Table course and it's free. Take care!

    Nicole

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  2. LindsaySeptember 17, 2010 at 5:40 AM

    Thanks! I will check it out. I have thought that maybe this is just God's way of drawing me closer to Him, telling me that I need to make Him my priority and give him complete control of my life.

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  3. -:-Chanin-:-September 17, 2010 at 11:50 AM

    Hi Lindsay, I found you thru 'Strong is the new Skinny'. I' ve read a few of your posts and I just want to say that I can totally relate to what you are saying/struggling with. I was a personal trainer (still do some) and was totally obsessed with training, what i was or was not eating and my body image as well. Thankfully I broke free from alot of that- but it wasn't easy and now that I still work out in moderation and try to do things in moderation- it is still hard sometimes to not immerse myself in all of that again. Like Nicole (above) mentioned, I saw clearly that i was making an idol out of fitness and all of that.

    I'm a bit older now (41) and I have found that there is more to life than looking perfect and thinking about workouts and food and all of that. But i think it will always be a bit of a struggle that I'll have to manage. I do love lifting weights. It's a mood elevator for me and I love to help others stay healhy and strong.

    Anyway, my 'escape' from my obsessiveness about all of this was about 7 years ago and if I can ever be of help to you, please let me know. You are a beautiful girl and I am happy to see you are a Christ-follower too :)

    Be blessed!

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  4. LindsaySeptember 17, 2010 at 12:34 PM

    Hi Chanin! Thanks for the comment.

    I hope this is just a phase that I'm going through and that I won't always be so concerned with how my body looks. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be able to go back to my "normal" eating, not worrying about protein, carbs, and fat!

    I love eating healthy, lifting weights and BEING healthy, and I always will. But I don't want food to be a cause of anxiety!

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