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Thinking...
That I can't believe it's already November! As much as I hate the weather that comes with it, I do have to say I love this month. My husband's birthday is in a couple weeks  and then Thanksgiving! I love seeing family and eating lots of yummy, homecooked food...and pumpkin pie! Plus this is my last month of training for my meet in December!  I can't believe I'm really doing this!

Excited about...
Putting my Christmas tree up! I love Christmas. A part of me gets sad because it makes me think of my Dad....and last year I got so depressed about taking my decorations down that I said I wasn't going to decorate this year. I think I'm just going to put my tree up earlier so I can enjoy it longer! Christmas is a magical time, and I hate it that for most people it's a time of stress and anxiety. It shouldn't be that way. :/

Feeling...
Cold. Just cold. All the time. I want Summer back...but instead...it's back to this for my daily walks. Wah wah wah.

Reading...
Just finished this book, Unwritten by Charles Martin. I really liked it! I guess one good thing about the cold is lazy weekends spent reading! Gotta try to focus on the positive!

Loving...
I was not sure about this one...pumpkin gum?? Buuuut I actually love it.
Eating...
Last weekend's treat was this delicious thing right here. An oreo stuffed brownie. Amazingness. I will be making these again without a doubt.
Drinking...
Chocolate Platinum Iso-Whey blended with a banana and PB2, one of my fave post workout shakes, second to my pineapple banana smoothie. 

Smiling because...
My sister came over the other day with Celeste! It's been too long since I've seen her! She is cuter every time I see her. I can't believe how big she is getting. She runs around and climbs on things now like a crazy person!


Listening to...
Unspoken. I found this acoustic performance on YouTube and played it on repeat. I love this song.


"The day keeps coming pulling me a different million ways
I'm always running but never seem to catch the things I chase
When I'm with You my soul finds rest
Cause I can leave it in Your hands..."

Have a great rest of the week! :)

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    1. So simple-make brownie batter according to box, then just put 2 oreos in each muffin tin and pour batter on top!

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  2. Hi lindsay. I love love love your blog and I check it everyday :).
    I was just researching something and found this old post of Tara's from 2012. Thought this was cool because it was just a hope or dream that you made happen.

    Lindsay Cappotelli
    November 19, 2012
    I’m sorry you’ve been going through this! I know how hard is must be to give up a dream. At least you can still lift and train hard…maybe you could do a powerlifting competition or something? I've always wanted to do that at some point in my life. I’m glad you didn’t quit blogging!

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    1. Hi! Thank you so much!
      Wow, that's awesome, thanks for sharing! :) I don't even remember what was going on at that time, but that is cool that now I'm actually doing it!

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