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A Letter To My Niece

To the little girl who changed our world.

Dear Celeste,
You had my heart from the very first moment I heard yours beat.

I will forever remember the moment Mindy called me and told me she was pregnant. I will forever remember hearing your heart beat for the first time. I will forever remember being at the ultrasound when we found out you were a baby girl. I will forever remember the moment you entered the world and Dr. Watkins had me cut the umbilical cord.

From the moment you were born, I was in love. Absolutely head over heels. I couldn't get over how cute you were, even as a newborn! I had my camera ready that first day of your life, and I haven't stopped snapping pictures of you since. I'm not even ashamed to admit that I may have a bit of a problem when it comes to the picture taking, and I'm sure you are getting tired of the camera being in your face all the time. Over three years later, I still just can't get enough of your cuteness. I just can't.

You have brought so much joy and happiness to me and to our family. I truly believe that  you were an answered prayer. You brought my sister back. You brought back the joy and the light to her eyes. You brought back the Mindy that had been lost for so long. I thank God for that and for you every single day. Our family has become so much closer, all because of a little baby girl.

I never knew that I could love a human being so much. Even just thinking about you sometimes brings tears to my eyes. I even wonder sometimes, "Is this normal??" I don't understand how can a tiny human person have this kind of effect on me! I get so excited to see a picture or video of you on Facebook or Snapchat, and it makes me entire day when your mom sends me a voice text or video from you. I listen to it over and over and over again! I love your cute little voice, your big blue eyes, your smile, your laugh. Hearing you call me "Aunt Lindsay" and saying that you'll miss me when you say goodbye completely melts my heart! You have me wrapped around your finger...and I'm totally fine with it.

My prayer is that we will continue to have a close relationship as you grow older. I wish you could stay little forever, but I'm excited to watch you grow up, to go to your sporting events, to watch your graduate, to see you grow into a woman. I wish I could shield you from all the evil of this world and protect you from anything bad ever happening to you, but I know that I can't. But I can pray. And I can be there for you.

I hope that you'll turn to me if you ever need to talk or ask for advice. Just know that I'll be there if you need me. Just know that you have someone who has been praying over you since the very first day you were born, and I will continue to pray for you for the rest of your life. I pray that God will keep his hand on your life, that He will protect you, that He'll lead you and guide you, and that you will make the choice to follow Him.

I love you so much Celeste Faith, and I'm so lucky to be your aunt.

Love, 
Aunt Lindsay




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