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Goodbyes Are So Hard

Just when things start looking up...life throws you another curve ball.

Sunday night I had to say goodbye to my sweet fur child... and my heart is broken. Well, what's left of my already broken heart.
For 12 years, Asher was the best dog anyone could've ever asked for. Everyone who met him fell in love with him, even people who didn't like dogs! For 12 years, he brought Matt and I so much joy. I've never seen a person love a dog as much as Matt loved Asher. He was SO loved. 

Coming home from work last night was the worst.  It's going to be so strange for a while not being greeted by him when I walk through the door, not hearing his nails on the wood floor, not having his fur floating around and covering every surface. This house isn't going to be a home without Asher in it. 

My brother said it best-it feels like the life has just been sucked out of the house.
It still doesn't feel real right now because it all happened so suddenly. The only thing I'm thankful for is that Matt didn't have to go through this, because it was awful. I never want to go through that again. It was the hardest decision I've ever had to make.

 It just feels like another piece of Matt is gone, another piece of my old life is gone, and it's just super depressing. I feel even lonelier now , and I didn't even realize that Asher was helping me so much by just being here. I was actually starting to feel a tad bit better these last couple weeks... and now it's back to feeling sad and depressed and like the joy has been taken from my life.

I'm going to miss this guy so much.

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