Lindsay's Ramblings

 June 29th, 2018.  4 years ago. The day that changed me forever. The day that made me a widow.  The day that a piece of my soul died, and it felt like all the light was sucked out from my life. The day that my heart was shattered, never to be whole again. 4 years...and I still carry my love and grief for him every single day. There will always be in a void in my heart from his absence.  Matt, you are a part of me, and I will love you forever. Nothing will ever change that.You taught me so much in the 14 years I spent with you. You taught me how to live. You taught me how to love. You taught me how to give. You taught me how to keep the faith and fight in the face of adversity. You taught me how to smile and laugh in the midst of life's trials. You taught me to find joy in each day. You taught me not to complain about life's circumstances, but instead, to use them to inspire other's and glorify God. You taught me that it's okay to be vulnerable and to wear my heart on...

 Hiiii y'all! It's been a while...anyone still out there in the good ol' blogspot world???? I know I'm so behind the times, but I still like having this blog as a way to look back on things throughout the years. Life's been pretty busy lately, but good! Having 3 kids 50% of the time definitely keeps things interesting! I have to give you parents out there props, because raising kids is HARDDDD.  Lately I have just been so hard on myself about the whole "stepmom" thing. I put a lot of pressure on myself, sometimes unnecessarily I feel like.  But I just care for these kids who are under my roof and want the best for them! I feel like it's gotten harder instead of easier as time has gone on. It's just a lot, especially being thrown into it so quickly and going from no kids and a quiet house all the time...to lots of noise and chaos!  It's making food and snacks, and setting rules and having structure, and planning fun things, and cleaning up const...