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Just Some Thoughts :)

 Hi my blog peeps! (All five of you-haha!)

I feel like the Summer is flyyying by!!! Why??? The kids have only THREE weeks until school starts back; it's crazy. I feel like we haven't had much time to do many fun things this Summer, between me working some Saturdays, how rainy it's been and then just having the kids every other weekend. BUT we leave for Florida in 12 more days!!! I cannot wait. And there will still be time to do things on weekends, even after school starts back. We have had a couple of camping trips and lots of fishing with the kids-I love that they love fishing so much! We've had a few pool days, too. 

The plan for this Summer was supposed to be us at the lake on the boat every weekend....buuut SOMEONE (cough-cough-Damon) didn't winterize the boat after last season, and it ruined the motor or something like that. We've been trying to get it fixed, but it's not looking like it's going to be water ready this Summer. :( I was so looking forward to it, but oh well. What can ya do? Winterize y'all's boats, people. 

Anyway, I've been thinking about this year and how it's been it's just been kinda rough, from the start. With the stuff that's happened with Damon's ex and hurtful things she's said to me(AGAIN), issues with Damon and I, and being rejected by friends on top of it all...my heart has taken a beating, not gonna lie.  I've cried a lot this year, when I thought most of my crying days were over! 

But I've been feeling better about it all lately. Like I said in my previous post, I'm not going to have a pity party about it anymore. I'm not gonna let it bring me down any longer. I've felt it, I've grieved the relationships, I've looked inward and acknowledged my part in things, I've prayed, of course... but now I'm just focusing on me, moving forward, being the best I can be, and most of all, just keeping my eyes on Jesus and living out His purpose for me. 

I feel like all that I was sheltered from when I was with Matt for those 14 years, I've experienced in the last 5 years! Being hurt, betrayed, mistunderstood...conflict, drama... My naive, sheltered life is over, that's for sure! It was easy to be happy when there was really nothing outside of my life with Matt to be concerned with. Looking back, I see how sheltered I was, but at the same time, I wouldn't  have changed anything. My heart was a lot less damaged back then, that's for sure. But I guess that's not really the real world. Life is full of change and ups and downs and hurt and betrayal and pain and misunderstandings...hopefully we learn and grow and adapt, not let it change us in a negative way, or cause us to become numb or angry or bitter. 

Damon has helped me a lot, just encouraging me that we'll be okay, and just to keep moving forward and doing us. When I start to think about things or get sad about it, I just tell myself to stop and focus on something else. I've said my peace, I've let go of resentment and anger.

Sooo here's to enjoying the rest of the summer to the fullest!  




















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