Lindsay's Ramblings

 Well, y'all...I turned 40 today, I don't know what it is, but I've been feeling very emotional and contemplative lately...not about getting older or anything like that, I guess just reflecting on life and the last 10 years. Man, I've been through some stuff. I'm definitely not the same person I was entering into my thirties, that's for sure. Life has changed so much... And even though I am excited about the future and all that's to come, and I'm SO thankful for where I am right now, it's still hard in these moments, feeling like it's another thing Matt is missing out on, or that I'm moving farther away from him. I don't know...it's hard to put into words...but it's got me feeling some kind of way! I'm happy and sad and thankful and anxious and hopeful, all at the same time. And I guess also just thinking about how Matt didn't get the opportunity to reach his 40s...which is sad, knowing how much life he still had to live. ...