Lindsay's Ramblings

It's a boring, rainy, dreary Sunday! I am SO ready for some sunshine and warm weather. Matt's working on his jeep in the garage...so I've just been trying to stay busy by cleaning, cooking and typing up recipes. Yesterday for our treat meal we went Panera Bread for the first time and had some soup and sandwiches. Then some pastries for dessert: Yes, I had a pumpkin muffin AND a strawberry scone! And we might've picked up some Girl Scout cookies on the way home....and just maybe I ate a couple... So for some reason I always get in a baking mood on Sundays! Today I made some protein pumpkin muffins. All that was in the recipe was pumpkin, protein, eggs, and spices. Matt didn't like them(I don't think I baked them long enough so they were a little mushy on the inside), but I thought they tasted like pumpkin pie! So I just ate them all. :)

Have I ever said how much I love squats ? Well, only heavy squats, that is. There's nothing better than the feeling after you finish a hard set of heavy squats- I love it!! Sometimes I think I would just like to be a powerlifter. Forget those met-cons! Today's WOD was 5 sets of 3 squats. I'm still pretty sore from heavy deadlifts a few days ago...of course, with CrossFit it seems like I'm always sore! I ended up with 3 sets of 185lbs, which I'm satisfied with. My squats were pretty strong before I started CrossFit, but that was only going down to parallel, not a full squat. So my weakness is in the bottom position of the squat and my hip and glute strength. Well, it's finally FRIDAY !!!!!!!!! Tonight we're having tacos and then tomorrow is my cheat meal! Yay! :) Even though I have had a few "cheats" already this week. I bought a box of chocolates at the grocery store the other day because they were on sale, so I have to admit that I did hav...

For the last year or so I've been keeping track of my protein intake on a dry erase board on my fridge. I started this just to see how much protein I was taking in each day in my quest for building muscle, and then it just became a habit and I've been doing it ever since. I would also mark off how many grains, fruits, dairy, and vegetable servings I had throughout the day. I started this just to make sure I was getting in enough of all the food groups....then it turned into a way of tracking these things to make sure I wasn't getting TOO much(particularly grains and fruits) when I started my quest to get a six pack(dumbest thing ever). This did help me for awhile. I've always been the type of person who likes to have everything planned out, and I make lists for every little thing! It's just my personality. But I've decided that now that I know what and how much to eat to get in the protein that I need each day, I don't need to keep track of it anymore! ...

So I've been thinking lately about my "OCD" with food. Yes, part of it is liking how I look being lean... but that's only half of it . Maybe not even half. The other part of why I seem to be getting a little too obsessive about food is the fear that I'm damaging my body by eating foods that aren't good for me. I have this huge fear of getting heart disease or cancer or having a stroke or alzheimer's disease when I'm older! I read a lot of blogs(many are paleo blogs), and I work with people who are all about the paleo diet, as I've mentioned before. I've been feeling almost guilty lately about eating certain things that they say are so bad for me....But I read so many different things, different opinions, conflicting information...and it just boggles my mind and causes me to constantly worry! Like I feel like everything I eat is bad for me now in some way or another! Chicken breast is good for you right? Well, not if it's not grass fed...

http://fortheloveofcookies.wordpress.com/2011/02/17/women-and-leanness-the-debate-and-ugly-truths/ A post I can relate to in many ways. I'm not super super lean, and I have never "dieted" for a competition(nor will I EVER), but I will admit that I have become a little OCD with food in the last year. I've changed the way I eat a LOT, and I've gotten leaner. And I can definitely see that when you get really lean, it's like you're never satisfied-you only want to get leaner and leaner. The leaner you are, the more obsessive you become. You become so critical of yourself. You point out all the little places where you still have fat to lose, even just the tiniest bit. And I know it's not just me. Anyone who is very lean has to work really hard for it. Being that lean does not come easy for most women. It's a little easier for me than most because I have a pretty fast metabolism. But I still have to work for it. I do sometimes miss the days when I ...

Kelly just about killed me today! "Kelly": Five rounds for time of: Run 400 meters 30 Box jumps, 24 inch box 30 Wall ball shots, 20 pound ball It was 40 minutes of pure torture . I used a 22 inch box because that's all there was at the gym, and I subbed 15lb dumbbell thrusters for the wall balls. It sucked!

Today we're supposed to be getting a record high of 74 degrees. YEAH! But it sure is windy out there! Too bad this weather isn't here to stay. I'm sure it's just a tease. :( But not too much longer to go until Spring gets here! Today's WOD: Annie=50-40-30-20-10 reps of double unders and situps. I actually did pretty good on the double unders, surprisingly! The situps were the hard part for me. So I bought some almond butter the other day for the first time...And it's definintely my new favorite thing! Had it with an apple yesterday, and today on a piece of Ezekiel bread. SO good. :)

Reasons I will never be a runner: 1. I HATE it. Have I mentioned that before? 2. There are much better ways to stay in shape. 3. Almost every person I see jogging on the sidewalk looks like skin and bones! Anyways.........so pretty much all of the people that I work with are now on the "Paleo" diet. All I hear about is Paleo. What I just don't like about the Paleo diet is they believe it's the ONLY and the best way to be healthy and fit. And I'm just not convinced that's true. For example, the mediterranean diet is supposedly one of the healthiest diets, and it does include whole grains and legumes, which the Paleo diet tells you to completely eliminate. Also unlike the Paleo diet, it doesn't include lots of meat, especially red meat. So how do we really know what's best? What both diets do have in common is NO processed food s, eating healthy fats like fish and olive oil, and lots of vegetables .I think that's the key. Exercise, eat less g...

5 years ago today, my husband proposed to me and made me the happiest girl in the world! Thank God for giving me such an amazing husband. :)

I arrived at work Friday afternoon to find a beautiful bouquet of flowers on my desk from my husband! I love them. :) Along with this cute note: Is my husband not the cutest thing ever ??? I love him! Saturday morning we went to Max Fit(the gym I work at) to work out. Well, it ended up being a horrible morning. It started out with me wanting to do a few muscle ups before the WOD. Well, I couldn't even get ONE muscle up. I was SO mad and frustrated. I have done these so many times before! So I just stopped trying and did the WOD, which was 15 pullups and 30 second ring L-sits, as many rounds as possible in 15 minutes. Well, my kipping pullups were horrible. I just couldn't get the rhythm. I was actually on the verge of tears the whole workout because my body just wasn't doing what my mind was telling it to! I felt weak and tired and it sucked . I was so down on myself. I hate when I can't do something well! But I didn't quit, I didn't give up. I suffered throug...

I was totally not feeling the WOD today. I felt tired and really just didn't feel like doing it! My heart definitely wasn't in it-I was just going through the motions. But at least I did it. Last night I started missing my bodybuilding workouts again....just a little bit......I know, I know, I have officially broken up with bodybuilding. I'm a CrossFitter now. But sometimes I think, once a bodybuilder, always a bodybuilder! But I've committed myself to CrossFit, and I do love it...but sometimes I wish I could somehow have the best of both worlds!

Those who've been reading my blog for a while know that I despise running. I absolutely hate it-always have, always will. My body was made for speed, not endurance! One of the first CrossFit workouts I did was run a 5k. Even though I didn't want to do it at all , I sucked it up and did it....and it was absolute torture . Every second. I hated it, and didn't want to ever have to to that again! Well, guess what today's WOD was? Yup, run a 5k. How FUN . So, of course, I really didn't want to do this WOD today...but did want to see if I have improved since the first time. Well, this time was MUCH easier, and I did it about 3 minutes faster than last time! I didn't have to stop and walk at all! As much as I hated doing it, it does make me feel good knowing that I'm getting better. I have no desire to be a runner whatsoever, but I do want to improve in all areas of fitness, and not just be good at one or two things.

I just realized I hit one of my 2010 goals! 5 handstand pushups! I practice these everyday. I'm a little obsessed! Each week, I want to try to get one more rep.

Monday already. :( Boo . We didn't do anything too exciting over the weekend. Went to the movies Saturday to see Sanctum, which was pretty good, but kind of sad. Too many people died! Sunday started off with the WOD, Karen: 150 wall balls . What fun! I didn't want to drive all the way out to where I work to do it, but I didn't want to tear up the walls at the gym my husband manages...so I decided to just do it outside at my husband's gym, since it's just right across the street from us. The temperature was somewhere in the 30s, and my hands were almost numb the whole time! But I did feel kind of hard core. LOL. It took me about 15 minutes to do the workout. I'm sure I looked like a lunatic to the people inside the gym! But, what's new? Then of course, it was the Super Bowl, so we used that as an excuse to order pizza! We had Papa John's, which I haven't had in I don't even know how long. And of course, I ate way too much . So only protein ...

So this is gonna be a more serious post than the ones I've posted lately...I just want to get out my feelings and get this off my chest. It's always helped me deal with things by writing about them and just venting. Getting it out usually makes me feel a little better. Sorry, it may be a long one. I worry about my little brother, Jesse. It's a constant weight on my heart; a sadness that just won't go away. He's on my mind every day. It's hard to see my little baby brother do the things that he's doing. He used to be my little "buddy", who was always there hanging out with my sister and me and our friends, and now...now it's like he's just not that same person anymore. I miss my little brother! I went through this same thing with my sister. After Dad died, she got pretty bad into drugs. That was really hard for me. She was my best friend all my life-the only one I could cry with and talk to about anything...and then I lost her. She wasn'...

I'm just bored...so here are a few of the things that I'm loving right now(not in any particular order): 1. Coffee (which I have a cup of right now) 2. Apple Pie Lara bars -so yummy! Just had 1/2 of one :) 3. Krema Natural crunchy peanut butter. I can't even explain how good it is.... 4. Chocolate peanut butter protein oats -new fave breakfast! 5. Warm, fuzzy knee high socks . I wear them every day when I'm at home! 6. Chapstick -can't go without it, especially in the winter! 7 .Bath and Bodywork's Forever Sunshine lotion -smells wonderful! 8. Fridays (which is today-YAY!!!) 9. CrossFit , DUH! 10. Harlen Coben novels -Just read "The Woods". I love mysteries!