'A Widow's Song'
By: Carolyn Moor MWC Founder
- Despite what you might think, we are not stuck living in the past because we hang out with other widows.
- We are not in denial that we lost our spouses and yet, have a life to live for today.
- We know we aren't the same person as before anymore.
- We probably do need counseling- among a lot of other things.
- We occasionally make bad judgements. That's how we learn.
- We know we don't fit 'normal' for you (or us) in the world.
- We know you want us to go back to the person we used to be. We wish that too but it's not happening.
- Maybe we are crazy, if crazy means nothing makes sense anymore. Feeling crazy sends me on an emotional roller coaster which includes both laughing and crying in one sentence.
- We are going to talk about them, have their picture around. Forever. 2 years is not a long time in our world.
- We feel like you over step your boundaries with us.
- We can't fix this right now for you or for us. We are doing our best to just breathe, eat, sleep, evolve, think and pay our bills.
- We are in pain. Deep pain that can't always be seen on the outside. But believe me, it's in here and it hurts. So much so that I want to vomit over it sometimes.
- We aren't going to cover it up when it rises up. It's not healthy.
- We do our best to help you understand when it makes you feel uncomfortable. But being uncomfortable is only one part of this process.
- We hope that you never feel this way.
- We doubly hope this never happens to you.
- But if it ever does, know this one thing- I won't treat you like this because then, and only then, will we both understand all this without any words spoken.
- We are not in denial that we lost our spouses and yet, have a life to live for today.
- We know we aren't the same person as before anymore.
- We probably do need counseling- among a lot of other things.
- We occasionally make bad judgements. That's how we learn.
- We know we don't fit 'normal' for you (or us) in the world.
- We know you want us to go back to the person we used to be. We wish that too but it's not happening.
- Maybe we are crazy, if crazy means nothing makes sense anymore. Feeling crazy sends me on an emotional roller coaster which includes both laughing and crying in one sentence.
- We are going to talk about them, have their picture around. Forever. 2 years is not a long time in our world.
- We feel like you over step your boundaries with us.
- We can't fix this right now for you or for us. We are doing our best to just breathe, eat, sleep, evolve, think and pay our bills.
- We are in pain. Deep pain that can't always be seen on the outside. But believe me, it's in here and it hurts. So much so that I want to vomit over it sometimes.
- We aren't going to cover it up when it rises up. It's not healthy.
- We do our best to help you understand when it makes you feel uncomfortable. But being uncomfortable is only one part of this process.
- We hope that you never feel this way.
- We doubly hope this never happens to you.
- But if it ever does, know this one thing- I won't treat you like this because then, and only then, will we both understand all this without any words spoken.
Please have the utmost patience as I create a new song for the orchestra of my life.
Hello Lindsey. I am a Pastor from Mumbai, India. I am glad to stop by your profile on the blogger and the blog post. I am also blessed and feel privileged and honoured to get connected with you as well as know you and about your interest in christian life. the blog post has a beautiful widow's song which is moving and expressive. I have enjoyed by going through it. I am sorry to hear the loss of your husband almost a year back. Trust you have recovered from the loss of your loved husband. I love getting connected with the people of God around the globe to be encoureged, strengthened and praying for one another. I have been in the Pastoral ministry for last 40 yrs in this great city of Mumbai a city with agreat contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor live. We reach out to the poorest of poor with the love of Christ tob ring healing to the brokenhearted. WE also encourage young and the adults from the west to come to Mumbai to work with us during their vacation time. We would love to have you come to Mumbai to work with us during your vacation time. I am sure you will have a life changing experience. My email id is: dhwankhede(at)gmail(dot)com and my name is Diwakar Wankhede
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