So I was in the gym yesterday, you know, having one
of my “puny, I'm-too-skinny” days.As I look at myself in the mirror, I’m thinking, “Gosh, I look small today. I wish I could get bigger.Maybe I should eat more. I need to gain about 5 pounds. Okay,
I’m really gonna start eating more.” (I know, great positive self talk, right?)
But…I just can’t seem to follow through.I want to gain muscle, yes, BUT…the fear of
having a fat stomach (which is where all of the fat that I gain WILL go) holds
me back.Now, don’t get me wrong. I am
not someone who keeps my calories super low and restricts my carbs or anything-at
ALL. I eat enough to maintain where I
am, I eat enough to feel satisfied, but when it comes down to it, I’m NOT
eating enough if I am serious about putting on more muscle. The thing is, I’ll
maybe eat a lot for a day or two, or maybe even a couple of weeks, but then I
start to feel fat and think I’m eating TOO much, and I start cutting back.
So really… I must not want it bad enough…