Lindsay's Ramblings

The 14 years I had with Matt were beautiful. The life I had with him was all that I had ever wanted, wished for, hoped and prayed for. HE was all I had ever wanted, wished for, hoped and prayed for. He was an absolute blessing to me. Not having HIM in my life is an ache I will always feel.  These last few years of my life have been hard, obviously... especially compared to the life I had with Matt-a life of comfort, quiet, ease... It's truly been a whole new world for me, navigating life as an adult on my own without him, and then suddenly thrown into a life with kids-it's such a drastically different life than I had ever envisioned for my future.  I will always miss that life I had with Matt. It really was so perfect. It almost feels like it was just a dream, looking back...like a whole other lifetime ago. It's a strange feeling.  Sometimes think I have a mental block when it comes to my future, or even now, like when it comes to being truly happy and content. It's alm