Showing posts from February, 2019

Goodbyes Are So Hard

Just when things start looking throws you another curve ball.
Sunday night I had to say goodbye to my sweet fur child... and my heart is broken. Well, what's left of my already broken heart. For 12 years, Asher was the best dog anyone could've ever asked for. Everyone who met him fell in love with him, even people who didn't like dogs! For 12 years, he brought Matt and I so much joy. I've never seen a person love a dog as much as Matt loved Asher. He was SO loved. 
Coming home from work last night was the worst.  It's going to be so strange for a while not being greeted by him when I walk through the door, not hearing his nails on the wood floor, not having his fur floating around and covering every surface. This house isn't going to be a home without Asher in it. 
My brother said it best-it feels like the life has just been sucked out of the house. It still doesn't feel real right now because it all happened so suddenly. The only thing I'm t…

I Did a Thing

I did a thing!

I've been wanting to get my nose pierced for a while now, and I finally did it! I was at work yesterday, and just thought, what the heck, scheduled an appointment, and went by myself to get it done. And I'm so glad I did. I love it! 

I don't know what it is, but these days I just want to do all the scary/exciting and new things!

Maybe it's a phase, maybe it's me trying to feel some excitement after so many months of feeling pain and sadness, maybe it's just my rebel side coming out, maybe it's just that I want to feel alive again, I don't know. It's hard to explain. But I'm not gonna over analyze and just go with it. Right now I'm just living in the moment!

I've been doing so many things outside of my comfort zone the last few months, proving to myself that I can do things that are scary, and things that I want to do without worrying about what anyone else thinks. And it feels good. It feels good to know I'm a lot braver a…