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All We Have is NOW

When my husband died all the stability and certainty of my life disappeared in the blink of an eye. I felt like I was wondering around, lost, with no anchor. I truly had no idea what I would do or how my life would end up.

But one thing that helped me to get through this was just to take things one day at a time. Even though it was definitely hard at times when my heart was in so much pain, I tried to simply live in the moment and appreciate the small things. And I still do that to this day.

All we have is this moment. The past is gone and the future is not certain. So be sure to open your eyes to the beauty around you everyday. Savor this moment. Kissing your husband. Snuggling with your kids. A butterfly landing on a flower. Blue skies. A warm cup of coffee. Crickets chirping at night. A roof over our heads. A refrigerator full of food. A car to drive.

Life is hard. It seems like the world is in chaos right now and there's so much hate and anger. But we can make the choice to be thankful for what we have. We can make the choice to put a smile on someone's face. We can make the choice each day to show love instead of hate. Grace instead of anger.

God, let me never get stuck in my pain, my anger. Don't let me become bitter. Help me not to live in fear, but to rememebr that you ARE in control. You ARE guiding my steps. Your light is in me. Help me not to keep it hidden. Help me to be thankful for each day, even the hard or mundane ones. Help me to remember that this world is not my home and that worldly success is not the goal of life. Draw me back to you when I start to stray. Let me never fail to appreciate every small blessing and gift that you give me.

"See the world through the eyes of your inner child. The eyes that sparkle in awe and amazement as they see love, magic and mystery in the most ordinary things."– Henna Sohail
“Look at everything always as though you were seeing it either for the first or last time: Thus is your time on earth filled with glory.”― Betty Smith
“We're so busy watching out for what's just ahead of us that we don't take time to enjoy where we are.”
― Bill Watterson
"The world is full of magical things, patiently waiting for our senses to grow sharper."– W.B. Yeats
“The real gift of gratitude is that the more grateful you are, the more present you become.” -Robert Holden
"I wake up in the morning and I see that flower, with the dew on its petals, and at the way it’s folding out, and it makes me happy."– Dan Buettner
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if a blade of grass springing up in the fields, has the power to move you, if the simple things of Nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive."– Eleonora Duse
“Live today. Not yesterday. Not tomorrow. Just today. Inhabit your moments. Don't rent them out to tomorrow.”― Jerry Spinell

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  1. All we have is NOW - Way to go Lindsay !
    Much love and respect.

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