Springggg Has Sprung

Hiii!!!

It's Spring, and the weather is FINALLY beginning to cooperate! Lately it's been like 80 degrees one day, and then it's back to being 50 the next day. We had a few nights last week at baseball games where we froze our butts off at the fields. So not cool. I am beyond ready for the warm weather to be here for good! Lake days are calling my name...

So I thought I'd do a little "life lately" post in pics. We've been staying busy with the kids, as always. Baseball started a few weeks ago, so it's pretty much chaos with games every night of the week! We celebrated Liam turning 13, which is crazyyyy. He was only 9 when I met him!

I've gotten the Jeep out a few times now that we've had some warmer days, and surprisingly picked it back up pretty quickly! I am still just driving it through the neighborhoods, but it makes me happy! I'm gonna just keep practicing and get it back out on the roads without being terrified-that's the goal, at least.

Oh-I got a tattoo over the weekend! This is my third. It was totally spur of the moment, which is always the case when it comes to my tattoos and piercings. I've been wanting to do something for a while now with Matt's favorite bible verses-Philippians 1:20-21.

"For I fully expect and hope that I will never be ashamed, but that I will continue to be bold for Christ, as I have been in the past. And I trust that my life will bring honor to Christ, whether I live or die. For to me, living means living for Christ, and dying is even better."

That's all for now! Byeee!

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