Lindsay's Ramblings

I know to some, it doesn't make sense. But be thankful that it doesn't make sense to you... That you can carry Joy and sorrow at the same time... That you can feel grief and happiness at the same time... That you can have a hole in your heart that will never heal, yet still live life to the fullest... That you can miss what was and still love the life that you have. I know, because I'm living it.

These days... there's the sadness that comes with grief,  the ache that is always there... But also, now there's a sadness, another type of grief,  that comes with the wondering... if my future is secure, if I'm truly valued and treasured and wanted... the sadness of not having the security I once had  that comes with a ring on my finger... a promise... of forever... The uncertainty is killing me and wearing me down feeling like I have to BEG  for someone to see my value,  to choose me... not just for NOW... but for forever. Because after all I've been through I just want my happily ever after