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Striving For Perfection

http://www.stumptuous.com/rant-57-may-2010-whats-eating-you

This is a good article written by Krista Dixon that I can really relate to.

Ever since I decided a few months ago to go on this "quest" to get a 6 pack(which I'm not really aiming for anymore), I feel like my food and workouts are starting to consume my mind! I used to not think about what I ate so much...now I am constantly thinking about what I'm going to eat for the day, what and when my next meal is going to be, how many carbs/protein/fats I'm getting, etc.

I don't know if this is normal for people who are really into fitness and weightlifting, or if it's starting to become a little obsessive. I mean, I eat like I'm going to do a fitness competition or something, and sometimes I think to myself, "why am I doing this?"

Yes, I want to be healthy-that's my first priority-but I also want to be just a little bit leaner, I want my muscles to pop out just a little bit more, I want to see striations in my shoulders, I want the vein in my bicep to show, I don't want any fat on my stomach....it's like, why can't I just be satisfied with the way I am? To most people's standards, I am lean and toned, so why do I feel like I have to have to be perfect? Why do I feel like I have to keep 'fixing' things on myself? I mean, really, who am I trying to impress???

I'm not saying that I hate the way I look or anything. I LOVE my muscles, I love that I can see my abs, I love that I am strong. But sometimes I want more-I want to look even BETTER!! Soooo...is that a bad thing? To me, it just keeps me going, it keeps me motivated to train, to keep pushing myself harder and harder. But... how do you know when it's gone too far? When it becomes all you think about, when it becomes your LIFE?

I don't want my life to be focused on what my body looks like. It really becomes addicting! I don't want to constantly think about food. I feel like I'm at the point now where I'm not obssessed with it...but if I continue on this path of wanting to be just a little leaner and a little leaner...it could possibly get to that point.

I think I need to change my mindset. Like Krista says in the article, “Focus primarily on what your body can do, and how you feel inside it.” I need to focus less on 'fixing' myself, or trying to become leaner and leaner, or getting my abs to pop, or WHATEVER. I exercise to be strong, to FEEL good, to be HEALTHY, and that should be my focus.

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  1. TheFitnessFreakJuly 28, 2010 at 4:05 PM

    Amen to that! I know I focus on it way too much sometimes as well. I can hear God talking to me a lot saying, "Why don't you spend that much time on me"? I know it's the Holy Spirit and that I should start listening. I need to start listening. I want to start listening. I will : )

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  2. LindsayJuly 28, 2010 at 4:22 PM

    I've been having those SAME exact thoughts! I know it's God speaking to me.
    I need to put more of my focus and thoughts on GOD and not on myself and my physique.

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