CrossFit Thoughts and Fears!
Today's workout was 5 rounds of: 20 pullups, 30 pushups, 40 situps, 50 squats, with a 3 minute rest between rounds. What I did instead was: 10 pullups, 20 pullups, 30 situps, 40 squats and it was still really HARD.
BUT I am starting to get a little paranoid...I'm afraid that I'm going to lose muscle because we really haven't done any heavy lifting for legs. I miss my heavy squats! All we've done the past two weeks for legs are a bunch of wall balls(squatting and throwing a ball against the wall) and air squats, with some Olympic lifts mixed in that work the legs a little. I really don't want to lose any of the muscle I have worked SO hard for, and right now I feel like I am on a fat loss program...which is NOT my goal whatsoever.
But I'm going to stick with it. The guy I work for keeps assuring me that I won't lose muscle. And the girls that I've seen who have been doing CrossFit for a long time have the exact look that I'm going for, so I guess that shows that it doesn't make you smaller(unless you have a lot of fat to lose, of course). It's just soooo different from how I have trained for the past 12 years!
But maybe it'll get me to look like her:Or her:
Or maybe I just need to stop focusing on my LOOKS, and just focus on how much stronger I'm getting, what my body is capable of doing, challenging myself and pushing my body to the limit.
But anyway, some of the goals that I'm working towards for CrossFit: to be able to do a muscle up, to hold an unassisted handstand, and to be able to do a handstand pushup against the wall, head all the way to the ground. The dang muscle up is what's killing me! I tried over and over again yesterday, and could only get one muscle up, and that was from a box. It makes me so mad that I can't do it!
Here's a muscle up, in case you're wondering: