I'm a Worrywart!

I'm finding that I am an anxious person. I worry a lot. About the stupidest things. I used to not be this way, but I guess the older you get, the more anxiety you have. Or maybe it's just me!

It's usually not big things, but like I worry about all the things we need to get done around the house, things we need to buy, and how much it's going to cost and I hate spending money....and I stress about my workouts, my eating, wanting to build muscle but stay lean at the same time..... Am I doing the right type of exercise? Is CrossFit right for me? Am I building muscle or losing? Am I eating right? Am I getting stronger or weaker? These are things that are always in my head lately!

What drew me to CrossFit in the beginning was that I could just follow the mainsite, and I didn't have to worry about programming workouts for myself or what I was going to do in the gym that day. I just did whatever workout was posted for that day. It was simple, and it was fun, and I loved not knowing what my next workout was giong to be.

I don't know how I lost that, how I started to make it more complicated. I guess I felt like I wasn't getting enough lifting weights in, even though many workouts include heavy weights! I was afraid I was getting weaker, smaller. But I think it's all in my head! I feel like I look better now than I ever have, so why am I worrying??

So today, I was in my car, praying, and the thought came to my head once again, "None of this matters."

Yes, I do believe that God wants us to take care of our bodies and be healthy and do things we love, but fitness should NOT be the main thing in our lives. It's not who I am, it's just PART of who I am. It's not what my thoughts should constantly be fixated on! What really matters is how I treat people, helping people, setting an example, being a positive influence in people's lives. Not how much I can squat. I have to remind myself of this often.

So enough worrying already!! Geez, I am so over it.

I just want things to be simple again. I want to be excited about getting to the gym and doing this because I LOVE it. Not worrying if I should be doing CrossFit, if it's going to make me weaker or not help me gain muscle-I just want to have FUN and challenge myself and get better and stronger every day.

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  1. I am very much the same! I am always worrying about the house being clean, grocery list, food prep, new meal ideas, am I getting the right foods or too much/little protein and carbs. I think that us being female is one reason for that and we have all this extra energy from the nutrition and training we are getting. But you are absolutely right! Sometimes we just need to take a deep breath and relax! If you stress too much you are going to wear your body out and stress is not good for staying in shape either! Keep your goals going and pace yourself!!! This is a good reminder for me!

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