Attitude Adjustment

Most of the time I am a pretty positive person. I try to always look on the bright side of things and count my blessings, rather than focus on the negative. But I mean, we all have our times, I'm sure, when we catch ourselves being negative and complaining about things in our life.

I've found myself doing that this week. I've had a very, very busy week-doing a lot of training, long hours, and getting up much earlier than usual(as in 4:30 a.m. a couple of days, ugh)! I've found myself thinking numerous times throughout the week, "This is so exhausting", or "I just want this week to be over."

And then I realized that I shouldn't be thinking like that. Yes, it's stressful because I'm not used to working this much anymore, but this was a great opportunity that God gave me. It's a chance to earn some more income and to share my knowledge with others. I get to help others and hopefully make them want to be healthier and more active.

It made me think back to what my pastor spoke about last weekend at church. He said that getting into the habit of thinking, "It could be worse" will change your attitude about things. And I believe that's so true. It could definitely be worse-I could be working 8 hour shifts in the checkout lane at Kroger like I did for almost 4 years! I still to this day have nightmares about that place.

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