I mean, take my body image, for example. Over the past 2 years, I have drastically changed the way I eat. I cut my carbs way down, started eating less processed foods, and more protein. I have seen amazing improvements in my physique as a result. I am leaner and more muscular than I have ever been. But it's never good enough.
|Progress pic from late February|
But because of my perfectionism and the "fitness model" look I am striving for, I am always going back and forth between wanting to have "abs"(which means lowering my body fat), or just being satisfied with a healthy, lean, athletic look....even if that means having some love handles and fat over my abs.
With this beach trip I have coming up, I want to look the best I can, and I think to myself,"I have to get just a little leaner, I have to get my abs to show more".... as if I'm not lean enough?? When will I ever be satisfied? I mean, so what if I don't have shredded abs? I'm not competing, I'm not in magazines, so who am I trying to impress by having 6 pack abs? It's craziness, I know.
I mean, I'm not on a strict diet or drastically cutting my calories or doing hours of cardio a day, but I am very mindful of my macros and meal timing and all that. Which I don't think is a bad thing at all, but it's just like, 'Really?' WHY am I trying to get leaner than I already am...why am I fighting against my body just so my abs will look better? It's dumb, and I am stopping this craziness!