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Update

Hello! I thought I would share what's been going on with us lately. 

We celebrated our 12 year wedding anniversary a couple of weeks ago. It's crazy sometimes to think I've been with someone for 12 years! That's a long time! I'm so blessed and fortunate to have Matt in my life. He has brought my life SO much happiness. I'm so thankful for the marriage that we have and the love of Christ that we share.
Then...and now

Things are hard right now, yes, but I believe God has prepared me and put me here for just this moment in time, and I'm thankful that I can be here to help Matt through this challenging time. I wouldn't trade it for anything. He's the most amazing man, and it just breaks my heart to watch him suffer.

We've been getting Matt out and about a bit more lately. We went out for pizza at Butchertown Pizza Hall last weekend and also went to church for the first time in months. I've really missed it, even though we watch the sermons online or on TV weekly. It's just not the same as being there.

Last weekend it was beautiful out, so we sat outside and enjoyed the sunshine for a bit.... 
And then a few days later...this happened. 

I will admit, it's pretty, but I'm so ready for warm weather!

So this is where we're at right now. Matt's latest MRI and CT scan have shown some new areas of enhancement and increased brain swelling. The chemotherapy is keeping things stable but not stopping the growth as we would like to see. The doctors think that radiation is our next best option to delay the growth of the tumor. 

We turned down radiation initially, so Matt is hesitant and still has not made the decision yet whether he wants to move forward with radiation or not. We met with the radiation doctor, who told us that while radiation would not make him any better, it also wouldn't make him worse. But it would slow the deterioration due to tumor growth that we would most likely continue to see if left untreated. 

Matt has another infusion tomorrow and is meeting with the oncologist, so I will keep you updated on what he decides to do.

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