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Midnight Writings


I can't sleep tonight
My thoughts are filled with you
I wanna turn over and kiss you
But that's something I can't do

I miss your presence beside me
Your body next to mine
But when when I reach out for you
Your hand I no longer find

I want you to hold me
And I want to touch your face
One thing I miss the most
Is the warmth of your embrace

I want to crawl up next you
And lay my head on your chest
Listen to your heartbeat
And put my mind to rest

How can it really be
That I'll never feel your touch again?
Living forever without that
Is something I'd never imagined

I can only hope to close my eyes
And see you in my dreams tonight
Maybe that will ease the ache
Of not having you by my side

But then I'll just wake up tomorrow
To see that you're not here
And remember the reality
Of how I'm living my worst fear

I miss you more than anything
And not a second of the day goes by
When I'm not thinking of you
No matter how hard I try

You will always be there
In everything I do
Your heart may have stopped beating
But mine will never stop loving you.





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  1. UnknownSeptember 30, 2018 at 8:36 PM

    My heart is so broken for you. I can't imagine how it must feel to think of facing your life without your best friend and soul mate. Our family is praying for you each and every day. Thank you for being so raw and truthful with this journey, which I'm sure must feel like a nightmare most days. Thank you for clinging to God for strength through this.

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