Lindsay's Ramblings

Hey guys! It's been a while, so I thought I'd give an update on how things have been going. Matt has been doing physical therapy three days a week with someone who comes to the house. He has good days and bad days, but overall, he has been progressing now that he's moving more. He's still not able to walk, but he did take a few steps with the walker with the therapist a couple of days last week, which is major progress. I know he still gets super frustrated with the things he can't do, but hopefully he'll continue to improve and keep his spirits up! They actually recommended going to Frazier for in-patient rehab, so we plan on doing that starting Tuesday next week as long as we get insurance approval. He'll stay for a couple of weeks and get intense therapy multiple times a day, which they think will be extremely beneficial for him, moreso than what they can do with him here at the house. He's still doing his Avastin infusions every other week, but...

When I first met my husband in 2003, he was under contract with the WWE after just winning the MTV reality show, Tough Enough. He had moved down here from New York to train at Ohio Valley Wrestling, which is where we met. In 2005, he was just about to "make it" onto TV with the WWE when they found the tumor in his brain that ended up ending his career as a professional wrestler. It was a devastating thing for him. He had had such high hopes and dreams of becoming a WWE superstar and had worked so hard...and then suddenly all those hopes and dreams came crashing down. I and everyone else saw the talent and charisma that Matt had in and out of the ring-he had that "it" factor, he had the work ethic, which is obviously why he won the show. He was also so strong and outspoken about his faith and wanted to be used by God so badly, and it seemed like wrestling would be such a great platform for him to do that. But that's not how his story would go... After...

Well, it's just one thing after another with our poor doggy! My mother in law woke up Sunday morning to Asher covered in blood. We thought maybe it was from licking his legs excessively and that's where it was coming from, but we also noticed that he was bleeding from the mouth every time he ate and drank. We decided to take him to the animal hospital, and come to find out he has a GI bleed as well as a cut under his tongue! They had to keep him for a few days, but he's okay! In the last month, he's had a peri-anal fistula, then a twisted stomach a week later, and then another week later, this. I guess it's just park of getting old! I just hope he keeps pulling through all these things. I know he's not going to live forever, but for Matt's sake right now, I just don't want to lose him yet. He is our baby. We got to go and take him home yesterday! I was glad to see that he was his normal, happy self! The house is just so quiet and weird without him ...

"Getting into shape isn’t something you, “do,” and when you scream to the world this is the year you will change your life, you will fail…. unless you understand getting into shape isn’t something that is done, but how you live. Health is a journey, not a destination. Resolution people fail, because they believe working out cancels out all the bad in their lives that led to getting out of shape. You cannot out train a destructive lifestyle, and there is no known workout that can overcome too little sleep, too many beers, too much crap food and a lifestyle dedicated to a butt firmly planted to a couch 10-hours a day juggling electronic devices as your sole source of exercise. Joining a gym, dropping by a few times a week, walking slowly on a treadmill, but changing nothing else in your life, is why most gyms should only be gyms during the first month of the year and then turn into bars for the next 11 months. You join a gym with good intentions, but those in...

✴Happy New Year! ✴ This has been one heck of a year, full of lots of ups... and lots of downs. I'm not going to say I'm excited for the new year and all that, because what I've come to learn is that you just never know what can happen in life, or what God has planned for you. You can hope and plan for the best, but God always knows better,so all you can really do is choose to make the best of whatever circumstance you find yourself in and just trust Him. I know His plans are for my ultimate good, even when it doesn't feel like it in the moment. My plan for the new year is just to keep on trusting. I don't have any resolutions or goals for the New Year. I know, shocking, right? There's nothing wrong with that if it's your thing, but I feel like anytime I want to improve or change things in my life, I do it right then and there. I don't need a new year or a "fresh start". To me, every day is a fresh start. Anyways, today I thought I would sh...

You don’t realize it at first. You think this body-image obsession is going to give you everything – but you end up having to give everything to it, and so you lose.  You look great but you require the constant validation from faceless others to reinforce to you that it’s all worth it – only you know on a deeper level that it just isn’t.  At some point you realize you don’t want to give everything to this obsession anymore. And it is only then that you find your freedom. ~  Coach Scott Abel

These past two weeks have been a whirlwind. Matt got his port put in a couple weeks back for a new chemotherapy he'll be starting on called Avastin, which is administered intravenously. He was really nervous about the procedure, but I told him that if he can make it through two brain surgeries, he can make it through this! He got his first infusion last Tuesday morning, and he'll be getting them every 2 weeks. Based on the next MRI in January, he may also be starting another chemo pill along with the Avastin called CCNU.  Then last Thursday I flew out to Canada for a day of shooting with MuscleTech. It was a lot of fun(and hard work!), and I can't wait to see the finished product.  I met a lot of cool people, and it was a great experience, but I hated leaving my hubby at home, even though he had his parents here with him. I just couldn't wait to get back home! So then I get back home Friday and find out Matt is in the hospital with the flu! He h...