Lindsay's Ramblings

It's Monday, and you all know that I hate Mondays, but I'm determined that this is going to be a good week! I'm not gonna be depressed that it's Monday! We're going to have great weather this week, with a nice break in the heat and humidity. Last week we had temps near 100 degrees with very high humidity, but this week it's going to be in the low-mid 80s! It's gonna feel like a cold front! It'll be perfect layout weather for me. :) We're also going to have nice weather for the 4th of July weekend- a little hot, but no rain! Well, my mom's wedding was Saturday. It was really hot and muggy, but other than that, everything turned out nice. I'm glad that my mom has found happiness; she deserves it. I just finished with a chest and triceps workout this morning. Got a set of 8 reps with the 45lb dumbbells, then a couple sets of bench press with 105lbs, for 5 reps. I really hate training chest! It's my least favorite muscle to train-well, b...

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him,and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5

So I don't know what it is about Mondays, but it seems that I get emotional/kind of depressed every Monday! I mean, yesterday I was just thinking about things and worrying about things...and just didn't feel myself. I'm not usually a worrier, but I go through phases when I feel anxiety over really nothing at all. There have been a lot of things going on with our church, which I've been thinking about for the past couple of weeks. Our pastor was "dismissed", and it's just been really, really upsetting. I feel betrayed and disappointed, but I also feel sad and mad at the same time! I'm mad at him for what he did, and sad that the church has "failed" just like everyone wanted it to. I looked up to our pastor and trusted him, and now that trust is gone, and it really makes it hard to be able to trust anyone now. I've never been through something like this before, so it's been on my mind a lot. But ultimately, all I can do is trust in G...

I love cookouts! We had a little get together/party for my brother's graduation at my aunt's house over the weekend. It was a perfect, hot summer day for a cookout. I played volleyball, threw football, played in the pool, and attempted handstands with my cousins(I have never been able to do one!!)-and today I am SUPER sore! My whole body hurts. I ate WAY too much-hotdogs, potato salad, chips-YUM!! :) I just couldn't seem to stop, even when I wasn't hungry. Then we had cake and ice cream! So it was one of those whole cheat days instead of just one cheat meal! Oh well. It's nice to have a break from thinking about what I eat so much, even if it's just for a day. So this week will be back to eating 100% clean...this weekend is my mom's wedding, so I know I will be eating more bad food!! Here are a few pics:

Yesterday my little brother, Jesse, graduated from highschool... I just can't believe he is all grown up! There is 8 years age difference between Jesse and I, and in some ways I feel like a mother towards him! Jesse was always my little "buddy" growing up. He did everything with my sister and me, and hung out with us and our friends all the time. We always got along, and he was never the "annoying little brother"! We haven't been as close during his teenage years, but I guess it's not "cool" to hang out with your big sister when you're a teenager or something. But that's okay. I wish my dad could've been there to see him graduate-he would have been so proud, since he never graduated from highschool himself. :( I know my brother has had a tough time since my dad died. It really hurts me to think about it. But I know he'll be okay. All I want is for him to be happy! Here's us at my graduation in '03 ...

Sometimes I just don't see how I came from the family I came from!! I am so different from my brother and sister in so many ways.... I just talked with my mom on the phone, and she is all stressed out and depressed about my brother and sister, as always. They just both don't seem to have any motivation to do anything with their lives. My sister lives in a trailer out in the middle of nowhere with her no good, bum of a boyfriend and his parents. She's 23 and hasn't had a job in years, yet she comes to my mom all the time for money, which my mom gives to her!!? She just uses my mom, and I don't see why my mom lets her do it. She'll never get a job if she knows Mom will give her money when she needs it. I just don't see how my sister can live the way she does. My little brother is graduating from high school, and really doesn't seem very interested in college at all....he's still young, and I understand that... I just hope he doesn't follow the same...

So I am back from vacation, and I had a GREAT time!! The 11 hour drive was torture, but it was worth it!!! We had beautiful weather-sunny skies for 4 days straight! It was awesome . There is absolutely nothing better than laying in the sun on the beach all day! So of course now I'm kind of depressed. I miss the beach sooo much . I desperately need to live near one. Kentucky is just too far from all the beaches!!!!! Well, I did get in a couple of workouts while I was there. I did one on the balcony of our hotel, so that was fun! And I didn't eat too horrible. Ordered grilled chicken and veggies for dinner most of the time, except for a steak one night. I did have mashed potatoes a couple of times, and biscuits and gravy(my fave!) for breakfast one morning!! Oh-and a chocolate peanut butter ice cream cone from Baskin Robbins, which was wonderful! :) So now I guess the next thing I have to look forward to is NYC!! We have our flight and hotel booked and our schedule all planned...