Lindsay's Ramblings

Ugggghh....it's such a nasty, rainy day. Of course, on the day it's finally going to be warm(almost 70!!), I can't enjoy it cuz it's probably going to rain all day. I can't even explain how BAD I want nice weather to get here. I cannot stand this. But anyway, I've been packing up stuff for the past couple weeks, and now I'm basically done. We have so much stuff! I didn't realize it until now...especially now that we are going to live in a place that is MUCH smaller than what we have now. So a lot of it is going to storage. It's going to be different living in a place that is is about half the size of our house right now! But it's okay, because all that matters to me is having a roof over our head, and a warm bed to sleep in at night. Because how many people in the world don't have that? There are children in parts of the world who would LOVE to just have a big, soft, warm, comfy bed to sleep in at night. I sponsor a little boy who lives in...

Sometimes I really wish I was a kid again....I had such a great childhood. Looking back, I can just remember how much fun I had, and I really think that it was the best time of my life! Running around outside barefoot, riding my bike around the neighborhood, playing in the creek and running through the woods...I had no cares, no worries whatsoever...all I had to think about was what game I wanted to play next! I wish I didn't have to grow up, but I will never be too "old" to act like a kid-I will always be a kid at heart! I think it's important to look at the world through a child's eyes sometimes-to find joy in the small things, to act goofy and silly and laugh until you cry. When you're feeling stressed and overwhelmed with life-why not take a few minutes and be a kid again? Run around in the yard with no shoes on, do a cartwheel, fly a kite, watch cartoons, swing on a swingset as high as you can, make up a silly dance, laugh out loud, hoola hoop, blow bubb...

Random thoughts at the moment: *I wish Matt were here. I hate not seeing him much anymore. *I'm glad the sun was out today-just wish it was warmer. *I hate winter. *I am in desperate need of a tan. *If I lived in Florida, I could tan everyday! I would never be pale. *I'm kind of sad, but trying not to be. *Winter makes me depressed.. *Kinda sucks to have to move AGAIN. *I just want to go to Florida. I need the beach. *Wish my brother would go to church with me sometime. *I need more friends. But I don't make them easily. :( *Don't know what to have for dinner tonight....eggs again? *I am so bored...and have nothing else to say, really. *I don't feel like going to work tomorrow. *This is boring.

I'm having sun withdrawals, I think. I desperately need some sunshine and warm weather.....Really baaaad.... Feeling kind of down with everything that's been going on.... Just found out today that we can't rent out the condo we have anymore, so it looks like we'll be moving back there-right back where we started. But I guess everything happens for a reason, and I know that everything will be okay. I can't see the big picture, so I just have to be patient and let things happen the way God wants them to happen.... Just so much has happened in the past few months. 2009 started out pretty crappy-a few days before the new year we found out that Matt's contract with the WWE wasn't going to be renewed. They said that they would maybe try to find something else for him to do with the company...but I don't think they really care. Would've been nice to have a few months notice that he'd lose his job,though... Sooo my husband had to drop out of school ...

Today we started packing up some of our stuff...and it finally hit me that we are really moving out of our house. When we bought this place in 2007, I really thought that we would be here for a long time. It really felt like home, and I loved it. Recently, my husband lost his job with the WWE, and we decided to rent our house out and stay with a friend who lives nearby. We could stay here if we wanted to, but we thought that this was a good way to save some money. At first I was like, it's okay, it's just a house...we can always find another. I still think that, but now I am a little sad that we're having to pack up and leave when we just so recently made this our home. We can always move back later if we want to, or we might stay here in KY for a little while so that my husband can find a job and then move to Florida in a year or two, like we've always wanted to. I just get sad thinking about leaving this house that I loved so much...I just have to keep telling myself ...

God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains ; it is his megaphone to raise a deaf world. -C.S. Lewis

Didn't do much today-trained a few people at the gym this morning...then worked out myself(legs)...then went to the tanning bed.... Had a good leg workout today! For some reason, I just felt really motivated and strong! Usually I dread leg day-legs are the only muscle I hate training...but what I need to work on the most! I love it when I'm done with legs and can hardly stand afterwards, and my legs feel like they're huge because of the pump! It's a great feeling. : ) I did some leg presses first-190 lbs for 12 reps! That's the most I've done with 190. Like I said, I felt strong today! Then did some smith squats with 110 lbs plus the bar??(I hate Smith machine squats, but the squat rack was being used----and the guys on it weren't even doing as much weight as I was doing-lol). Then I did some single leg presses with 80 on each leg...which were hard!! I know my butt will be sore tomorrow! Then did some single leg lunges with 60 lbs(my legs already felt dead b...

"Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork."

So now is about the time every year when I just get SICK of this crappy weather. I am totally a summer girl; I love being warm more than anything, and I am addicted to sunshine....but I can deal with the cold for a couple of months. After that, though, I just start getting stir crazy or something...or I have that Seasonal Affective Disorder!? Like yesterday, I just felt depressed all day! And for me, that is very rare-I'm always happy and in a good mood. But I think I just need some SUN, and I would feel all better!! Thankfully, today was much warmer(still not warm enough for me) and sunny, so I got to feel the sun on my face for a little while...it was great. : ) This is when I really start wishing that I lived in Florida. I've been wanting to live in Florida for years now, but my husband and I thought we would live here for a few more years and then move there. Recently, we thought that we were possibly going to have to move down to Tampa for my husband's job...but we...

Live as though Christ died yesterday, rose from the grave today, and is coming back tomorrow. - Theodore Epp

1. My husband, Matt, is my BEST and only best friend! I never knew I could love someone the way that I love him. 2. I am addicted to chapstick. My lips cannot live without it. 3. I've never been drunk, and have only had one alcoholic drink in my life(in Hawaii 3 years ago!) 4. I love lifting heavy weights and flexing in the mirror. 5. I love to sing and listen to people sing...but I am terrified of singing by myself in front of people. Wasted talent, I suppose. 6. I played softball for 10 years 7. The first concert I ever went to was N Sync in 6th grade! 8. I am scared of deep water because it takes all my might to stay afloat...I just sink! 9. I'm obsessed with getting bigger muscles. 10. My dog, Asher, is more like my child, and he is spoiled rotten. 11. My husband is the only guy I've ever said "I love you" to. 12. I barely talked in school until I was in the 4th grade, and got made fun of for it all the time. And the teachers thought something was...

"The number one cause of atheism in the world today are Christians who proclaim Jesus with their lips but deny him with their lifestyle." It's sad to say that this quote is so true. As Christians, we are called to be different from the world. We are supposed to try to live our lives as close as we can to the life of Jesus. But how many of us call ourselves Christians and go to church every Sunday, but still do all the same things that all of our non-Christian friends do? Can the world see that there is something different about you? It's not just enough to go to church on Sundays; it's not enough to just say that you're a Christain; it's not enough just to believe...there is much more to being a Christian than that. Jesus should shine through us in our actions and words...Yes, it is hard sometimes...but that is just part of being a Christian.

It is now day 6 of having no power, and once again, I'm at the library. I am getting tired of this! I really hope that by tonight we'll have power so that I can watch the Bachelor!! I'm going to be really sad if I can't watch it. : ( Last night Matt and I ate at Famous Daves, which was really good! But that is my last "bad" meal for a long time! I usually eat pretty healthy, but since December I've been a little less strict with my diet since I'm trying to sort of "bulk up" a little. I have gained almost 3 pounds!! But now I want to go back to eating healthy to get really lean for the summer....plus I just feel like crap when I eat bad food a lot. Anyway, after eating we went to my grandma's house to watch the superbowl. I didn't really care about watching the game, really, but I decided to go for the Cardinals since Kurt Warner is a Christian...but they lost.... Tonight I have to work...and hopefully by the time I get home our...